14 December 2017

Chemo day… juchhey!??!?

I pack food, books, earphones and Christmas cookies for the nurses and off I go. My blood is good and chemo #8 is on it’s way!  They always order them from a pharmacy across the road and it is only mixed just before I get it. While I wait, I manage to do today’s mediation and then they put the first drip and immediately I feel sooo tired. The cortisone pushes you and it is responsible for the restlessness and sleepless nights, but the painkiller I get first, makes my eyelids really heavy. No reading, no watching movies, but I listen to an audio book and dose off. Having missed two chemos, Prof. Dr. Breidenbach will decide after my check-up in January with Dr. Reiser, if I can skip any of the next 8 chemos or continue until February. I have to check Bali‘s volcano anyway, so there is no rush 😉

Claudia arrives a bit later, so I rest first and only start chatting with her, as the third bag – the chemo itself – mighty Paclitaxel (known as T) runs through my port into my blood vessels. Today they cool my hands and feet while I have the T, though nurse Theis does not really think that it will make a difference. My fingertumbs are really numb now and I don’t like typing, but hey, it is worth a try 😉

Already in hospital I no longer tasted the NaCl flushing my port on my tongue. They are doing it slower now, but maybe my taste buds have given up on salty!?!? My tongue looks  funny and they tested it and will get the results next week. Claudia leaves before me and shares some licorice – licorice is something that really works for me and I love it! There is the Bärendreck Apotheke, licorice heaven, just a few houses down the street and I send Claudia there, who cannot believe that she has never been there… especially the very pure licorice can help so well with the chemo sickness!

As I get up, I am all dizzy and tired and I feel my head is under a huge diving bell…. I am not a high blood pressure candidate anyway ;). I take the taxi home, eat something and sleep like a baby. The kids are at Nina’s again and I am so grateful, as I can peacefully sleep and Mom is here and pampers me – being all dizzy, I am glad I am not alone today ❤