18 June 2018

Energy level – rock bottom! I sleep most of the morning and am still exhausted! But I promised Mia to pick her up today and this is about all I am managing today 😉 and my weekly yoga tonight for my #stepupfor30 challenge! Somehow I have the cancer blues today – I have started my …

9 February 2018

Post chemo recap: hair, shaved, but regrowth noticeable (down on back of hands!?!?), but still nothing to shave on the rest of my body lashes – second set almost all gone again eyebrows – second set almost all gone again too skin – super dry inside and out weight – total gain of 7kg!! Feel …

8 February 2018

Why do these things always come at once!?!? My mental state is weak – one day post chemo – yet, I have to urge to get issues out of the way, tell people how I feel and when they hurt me. I have accepted that I am vulnerable, when I talk about my feelings, but …

1 February 2018

Chemo 15/16 ✔️ Beauty update: I was too scared to leave the eyebrow colour on all night and peeled it off before I went to bed last night and they are quite dark. I ask Markus at breakfast, if they are too dark and he states „yeah, but you still peel them off, right!?!?“ …ahhhh! …

25 January 2018

Will the chemo take place? Dr. Reiser is concerned, but we make a plan – I take antibiotics and he will do the chemo and we see next week how I am ….. whoooohooo 14/16 is in the books! Maja picks me up from chemo  and we planned to go for Fish’n’Chips, but the place …

20 January 2018

Chillaxing with one of my best friends – best therapy ever ❤️ Anne points out that I have a massive number reading issue with my chemo brain, as I read out some numbers and prices to her and apparently say them all in the wrong order …. hmmm…. mental note to self – no more …

18 January 2018

Life is like a bag of candy – you only know what something tastes like, when you actually try it….. Hurray it’s chemo day! What a night…. Mia was crying a lot, basically slept on top of me and in short intervalls and I didn’t 🙄. I stayed up late with Anke and chatted, but …

12 January 2018

Cortisone – love you and hate you….. forget the the rosy cheeks, as it is does not make up for the downturns….. not even a tiny weeny bit! No way! Apart from gaining weight and retaining water, I did not sleep all afternoon yesterday!! I rested though and listened to an audio book and watched …

7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing …

5 January 2018

Long live Cortisone – despite a dreadful night with Mia being awake next to me from 2 til 4 and me slipping on the wooden floor in the morning, when dashing over to Leo and bruising my wrist and knee, I feel great and well recovered from chemo. I do the Kindergarten run, sort out …