10 February 2018

I was so upset yesterday, disappointed, tired, hurt and all the hassle with the insurance company, who on top of all decided to send me a registered letter to confirm that they are cancelling all support, while I am out of Germany. I am fine though – I am honestly beyond caring, but this was …

9 February 2018

Post chemo recap: hair, shaved, but regrowth noticeable (down on back of hands!?!?), but still nothing to shave on the rest of my body lashes – second set almost all gone again eyebrows – second set almost all gone again too skin – super dry inside and out weight – total gain of 7kg!! Feel …

8 February 2018

Why do these things always come at once!?!? My mental state is weak – one day post chemo – yet, I have to urge to get issues out of the way, tell people how I feel and when they hurt me. I have accepted that I am vulnerable, when I talk about my feelings, but …

20 January 2018

Chillaxing with one of my best friends – best therapy ever ❤️ Anne points out that I have a massive number reading issue with my chemo brain, as I read out some numbers and prices to her and apparently say them all in the wrong order …. hmmm…. mental note to self – no more …

16 January 2018

Sleep – restless, energy level – zero, mood – down, bones – hurt….. poor me 😉 My tummy cramps and for the first time I think „oh, another tumor“ … stupid! But apparently normal! Thank God I have a breakfast date, the kids are back today, I am going out with the girls tonight and …

15 January 2018

Chemo drenches any liquid out of your body. My throat, my skin, all is dry and despite permanent moisturizing, it is getting worse! Thank god the end is near and kudos to all the endless supply of lotions and cremes I have been given – how did you guys know?!? To treat my skin, I …

9 January 2018

The tumor is gone, gone, gone….. whoooohoooo 🎉 Prof. Dr. Breidenbach is really nice as usual and I ask when the genetics test will happen and she is surprised that Holweide did not organize it yet – that will be the next step. Concerning my outstanding chemos, she still wants to finish the full cycle …

7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing …