26 December 2018

On the 25th we have our traditional Christmas brunch with the extended family, my cousins from Frankfurt and Cologne are here and whoooo had the same idea to go to a restaurant?!? My childhood friend Lars and his family are sitting at the long table next to us – perfect! I am full and tired, […]

12 February 2018

All kids and I are asleep by 9pm – Leo and Janis actually share a bed and the love between all these cousins is amazingly beautiful …. we are all completely exhausted from the day though. I wake up at 11pm to the worst nightmare I had in ages…. And it takes forever to fall […]

10 February 2018

I was so upset yesterday, disappointed, tired, hurt and all the hassle with the insurance company, who on top of all decided to send me a registered letter to confirm that they are cancelling all support, while I am out of Germany. I am fine though – I am honestly beyond caring, but this was […]

16 January 2018

Sleep – restless, energy level – zero, mood – down, bones – hurt….. poor me 😉 My tummy cramps and for the first time I think „oh, another tumor“ … stupid! But apparently normal! Thank God I have a breakfast date, the kids are back today, I am going out with the girls tonight and […]

12 January 2018

Cortisone – love you and hate you….. forget the the rosy cheeks, as it is does not make up for the downturns….. not even a tiny weeny bit! No way! Apart from gaining weight and retaining water, I did not sleep all afternoon yesterday!! I rested though and listened to an audio book and watched […]

7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing […]