15 January 2018

Chemo drenches any liquid out of your body. My throat, my skin, all is dry and despite permanent moisturizing, it is getting worse! Thank god the end is near and kudos to all the endless supply of lotions and cremes I have been given – how did you guys know?!? To treat my skin, I […]

29 December 2017

„Reach for the stars, not for the daisies“ (Nicole Staudinger) … but what if I don’t have the energy. I have the first sleepless night since ages and my mind takes funny turns. I cry and feel lonely. I don’t know what is wrong – I go to the bathroom and admire my little regrowth […]

22 December 2017

11 degrees and rain…. not the kind of Christmas weather I asked for, but hey, Michelle is stopping in Cologne on her way from Amsterdam to Frankfurt this afternoon and I cannot wait to see her 😀 Markus is home with Mia and Anja can fill in for our household help Steffi in the afternoon […]

21 December 2017

Chemo day…. Number 9 today! By now I know most of the patients and I chat with Sonja, who gets bi-weekly infusions due to an immune deficiency. Her friend has just been diagnosed with breastcancer and she heard about my blog. I hope it will help her! My other ‚follower‘, who has been diagnosed with […]

27 November 2017

Oh well, where do I start – yes, I am still coughing and yes, it feels like there is no improvement whatsoever!!! I have enough! I cough all night, my lungs are hurting and by times I feel I will throw up… and I get headaches. I am never ill and I get a headache […]

20 November 2017

No voice and I think I am close to loosing it now… the rest I mean 😉 This is the most annoying thing I have ever experienced (apart from four years ago, when I went to Oli’s birthday bash in Mallorca without a voice, but that did not last this long – by far). One […]