7 January 2019

Well, this is to my brother - and I am so happy to quickly see him today inbetween music therapy, my psychologist and the madness of my Monday! No, I have no time to see him today, but I make time... I need some coffee anyway and Balthasar's have a great breakfast. This is one... Continue Reading →

13 February 2018

Is is a crisp and sunny day... and I don't know how to manage it all.... but somehow it will fall into place. Leo is at home today, Markus is off, but has to work a bit, Mum is on her way and I need to calm down.... I should close my eyes, breath and... Continue Reading →

8 February 2018

Why do these things always come at once!?!? My mental state is weak - one day post chemo - yet, I have to urge to get issues out of the way, tell people how I feel and when they hurt me. I have accepted that I am vulnerable, when I talk about my feelings, but... Continue Reading →

9 January 2018

The tumor is gone, gone, gone..... whoooohoooo ๐ŸŽ‰ Prof. Dr. Breidenbach is really nice as usual and I ask when the genetics test will happen and she is surprised that Holweide did not organize it yet - that will be the next step. Concerning my outstanding chemos, she still wants to finish the full cycle... Continue Reading →

11 December 2017

Cologne is green and rainy again and I am back in my busy life, but at a much slower pace. The coughing is almost gone and my voice is still a bit rough, but coming back ๐Ÿ™‚ I see my gynecologist, Dr. Rix, for the first time since seeing her with the lump in my... Continue Reading →

27 November 2017

Oh well, where do I start - yes, I am still coughing and yes, it feels like there is no improvement whatsoever!!! I have enough! I cough all night, my lungs are hurting and by times I feel I will throw up... and I get headaches. I am never ill and I get a headache... Continue Reading →

23 November 2017

If you ever have cancer and want to watch a movie, DO NOT watch "Love Life".... I watched the first part earlier this week and decide to finish it of last night before going to sleep. BIG MISTAKE!! She has breast cancer, her husband cheats on her, she is fine again and they want to... Continue Reading →

28 September 2017

Chemo nurse Frau Fassbender wasn't there the last time and I like her straight away! "You are being expected!" - Katja has reserved a seat for me and I unpack the pretzels I brought along - Katja brought some M&Ms and we are ready to go. It is amazing how many parallels there are -... Continue Reading →

13 September 2017

I speak to the Taxi company "TaxiRuf Kรถln" in order to get everything ready for my free taxi rides - they are insisting that I see them at the other end of town and I can barely talk, as I have two screaming kids. I am frustrated and try to arrange everything.... thank god, she... Continue Reading →

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