Monatsarchiv:Januar 2019

Procrastination – that is me…. however, having the to do to pack, I do a lot instead and am awefully proud of what I have achieved. I bake my first ever zucchini brownies – not by her receipe, but inspired by Yavi ❤️ I make endless calls to get the confirmation that the pension fund […]

Today I hate cancer even more than normally, as it took little Jana away from her family. That’s not fair! Jana was about to turn 13 and was looking for stem cell donors. Please make sure you register with DKMS – it only takes a few minutes – and/or donate blood, if you can, as […]

Fatigue – I am tired of you!! I am already exhausted from waking unpin the morning! I see my alternative practitioner today – Sabine Kakizaki – she says that anxiety frees my last energy reserves and is on a mission. Foot reflexology, burning moxa stick and acupuncture for my kidneys, liver, bones and energy … […]

I am soooo tired, my eyes are burning, but as Astrid Lindgren says: Don’t let them get you down, be silly, wild and wonderful! The fatigue is making every move difficult, but Mia is the first day in Kindergarten…. hallelujah! Our household aid is sick, but so is my psychologist, which means no appointments and […]

I stay in bed most of the day…. I went out last night to see a my friend Christina for a lovely chat and though I had said no to any social engagements lately, I needed it so much. Yes, I need social contacts, but at what price?!? Maybe it wasn’t the fact that I […]

The entire week my mind circled around a fellow Instagram cancer patient, 21, diagnosis terminal. On Sunday, I was told by fellow cancer bloggers that she is mentally ill and invented her cancer. Now, generally, I don’t like talking behind someone’s back and believe that anyone is innocent until it is proven otherwise. An accusation […]

I am sitting with Mia in the children’s hospital waiting for an x-ray…. I am annoyed having had to travel to the other end of town, try to get a doctor’s appointment to discuss her restricted mobility…. and then I see the parents with the newborn, who look so worried and the dark circles under […]

Peace – that is what I need. • Peace and quietness (I am tired) • Peace of mind (I should meditate again – my mind is spinning around) • Peaceful interactions (I just don’t want any argument – with no one) • World peace (just that – no ambitions to compete in any beauty pageants […]

Mia stays for lunch in kindergarten, but I had planned to use the hour to get ready… nop … I am staying for lunch too 🙄 Tomorrow I will send my Mum to accompany her. I might as well benefit from here being here before she departs tomorrow 😉 I have my – what I […]

Tea – yes – tea – it is not unusual for me to drink tea, but it is unbelievable that just the thought of coffee makes me sick – that happened last time during the first days after my EC chemos 🤦‍♀️ ….but I enjoy my tea and am actually contemplating whether to go coffee […]