17 March 2018p

Happy St. Patrick’s Day! What will I do to celebrate?!? Nothing…. my energy to celebrate goes as far as making a green smoothy bowl 🙄

I wonder, if I will ever have more energy…. yes, I know I will, but it feels very surreal today and I wonder what my life after cancer will be like. Some people expect everything to be the same, but I am not the same person and the former life does not fit anymore. I don’t need to change everything though…. it is like a shoe, which is now too small – it’s not that I don’t like the style anymore, it is just a bit too tight in places. Shall I get it a size bigger or go for a completely different style altogether?!? I will just see, as time passes – next step: Radiation!

In hospital I started to write my story, but I am not even at 2.000 words yet 😂 this will be a long way, but I will write a bit more next week and try to make it a regular habit 😉

I spend the day with the kids and cycle with them threw snowy Cologne…. first to meet Jana & her family, run some errands, and visit Lea & her family for lunch…. without gloves – jeeeeeez, is there any need for these temperatures in March?!?! My hands are almost falling off!! Once Mia is awake, we are all meeting Simone & her family for ice cream at Eis Engeln….. just to make a point 😉 and I will have a quiet evening to recover, while Markus will go out with his friends.