12 February 2018

All kids and I are asleep by 9pm – Leo and Janis actually share a bed and the love between all these cousins is amazingly beautiful …. we are all completely exhausted from the day though. I wake up at 11pm to the worst nightmare I had in ages…. And it takes forever to fall …

10 February 2018

I was so upset yesterday, disappointed, tired, hurt and all the hassle with the insurance company, who on top of all decided to send me a registered letter to confirm that they are cancelling all support, while I am out of Germany. I am fine though – I am honestly beyond caring, but this was …

9 February 2018

Post chemo recap: hair, shaved, but regrowth noticeable (down on back of hands!?!?), but still nothing to shave on the rest of my body lashes – second set almost all gone again eyebrows – second set almost all gone again too skin – super dry inside and out weight – total gain of 7kg!! Feel …

8 February 2018

Why do these things always come at once!?!? My mental state is weak – one day post chemo – yet, I have to urge to get issues out of the way, tell people how I feel and when they hurt me. I have accepted that I am vulnerable, when I talk about my feelings, but …