I stay in bed most of the day…. I went out last night to see a my friend Christina for a lovely chat and though I had said no to any social engagements lately, I needed it so much. Yes, I need social contacts, but at what price?!? Maybe it wasn’t the fact that I …
Category Archives: Cancer
26 January 2019
The entire week my mind circled around a fellow Instagram cancer patient, 21, diagnosis terminal. On Sunday, I was told by fellow cancer bloggers that she is mentally ill and invented her cancer. Now, generally, I don’t like talking behind someone’s back and believe that anyone is innocent until it is proven otherwise. An accusation …
25 January 2019
I am sitting with Mia in the children’s hospital waiting for an x-ray…. I am annoyed having had to travel to the other end of town, try to get a doctor’s appointment to discuss her restricted mobility…. and then I see the parents with the newborn, who look so worried and the dark circles under …
24 January 2019
Peace – that is what I need. • Peace and quietness (I am tired) • Peace of mind (I should meditate again – my mind is spinning around) • Peaceful interactions (I just don’t want any argument – with no one) • World peace (just that – no ambitions to compete in any beauty pageants …
23 January 2019
Mia stays for lunch in kindergarten, but I had planned to use the hour to get ready… nop … I am staying for lunch too 🙄 Tomorrow I will send my Mum to accompany her. I might as well benefit from here being here before she departs tomorrow 😉 I have my – what I …
22 January 2019
Tea – yes – tea – it is not unusual for me to drink tea, but it is unbelievable that just the thought of coffee makes me sick – that happened last time during the first days after my EC chemos 🤦♀️ ….but I enjoy my tea and am actually contemplating whether to go coffee …
21 January 2019
Old?!? Yes, I am 45 and I could easily be the mother to a 25 year old, but do I feel old?!? No! And really?!? 45 is not old…. older than 25 and 35, but far away from old…. Mädelsabende’s theme this week has triggered my thoughts though! There were definitely a lot of moments …
20 January 2019
My cold is a bit better and I make an effort…. I try to bake a cake with the kids – had promised to do it for days and feel guilty – and feel that my energy drains and the bottom of the baking pan falls off – the springform literally springs – and the …
18 January 2019
I forget the easiest things, am overstrained looking after my kids, exhausted and tired and yes, I could just stay at home apart from doctor appointments, but I would probably get depressed…. I try though, make an effort, take Mia along to physio without a shower and a child that resembles a dandelion clock. I …
17 January 2019
#10yearchallenge #2008 #2018 2008 was a big year for me! I was dating Markus, but still going to sea, I had no kids and no obligations, but paid off the last bit of mortgage left on my little flat in cologne…my ex Nick contacted me after disappearing for ten years, I went skiing and I …
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