7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing […]

5 January 2018

Long live Cortisone – despite a dreadful night with Mia being awake next to me from 2 til 4 and me slipping on the wooden floor in the morning, when dashing over to Leo and bruising my wrist and knee, I feel great and well recovered from chemo. I do the Kindergarten run, sort out […]

29 December 2017

„Reach for the stars, not for the daisies“ (Nicole Staudinger) … but what if I don’t have the energy. I have the first sleepless night since ages and my mind takes funny turns. I cry and feel lonely. I don’t know what is wrong – I go to the bathroom and admire my little regrowth […]

28 December 2017

Chemoooooo hoooohooo! Number 10 is done ….whooohooooo! If all goes smoothly, I am all done in one month’s time … yipehhh! Since the kids have no Kindergarten and Markus is off today, I ask them to bring me to chemo. I want to show the kids, where I go and I want them to meet […]

22 December 2017

11 degrees and rain…. not the kind of Christmas weather I asked for, but hey, Michelle is stopping in Cologne on her way from Amsterdam to Frankfurt this afternoon and I cannot wait to see her 😀 Markus is home with Mia and Anja can fill in for our household help Steffi in the afternoon […]