Monatsarchiv:April 2018

Today is Mama and Leo Day, as Kindergarten is closed – it is sunny, warm and we are meeting Leo’s buddies in Boulder Planet, go to Burger King and hang out in our garden! I am exhausted and realize that I am not fit yet for a full day with kids…. I need to get […]

I ride my bike through the little streets off Turiner Straße, where the radiology center is. There is a huge construction site and I have problems finding the back entrance, but make it just on time. It is early in the morning, but the air is warm, the sun is bright and I am ready […]

Summer is here and it feels like the ‚good old times‘ in Frankfurt! Anne and I know each other from the Lufthansa’s flight attendant training days in 1994 – back then there were no kids and endless talks with coffee and cigarettes…. today was just like that, as the kids stayed at their father Karsten’s […]

DKMS LIFE runs the German „Look good feel better“ programme organizing make-up seminars for cancer patients. It does not matter, if you just got your diagnosis, are in the middle of treatment or already in remission – they want to put a smile on our face and there are many companies supporting them with make-up […]

The sunshine wakes me up and my mood brightens as the beams hit my face. I feel much better and enjoy the early morning with my kids. Mia wants to cuddle all the time and clings to my leg…. my kids – like all kids – have very fine senses and feel when I need […]

I sleep only a few hours and lay awake having bad mom thoughts running through my mind. It rains heavily and I do not manage to stop my mind, which runs like a hamster in a wheel….I feel guilty for not spending the afternoon with my kids, as I will hardly be home next week. […]

It is warm and sunny and busy…. Yes, I do too much, but the weather is so beautiful and I feel that I am full of energy. I am very proud to say that I managed to get an appointment at a very cool barber shop! The bearded guys and their bearded clients looked slightly […]

I quickly get some passport pictures done today, as the City of Cologne wants some up-to-date ones for my handicapped ID, which was apparently granted in February. I look at the pictures thinking that I look quite normal again. Normal? What is normal?!? My world is upside down, I do things differently, think differently and […]

I am in bed… I am exhausted, my throat hurts, I have no energy…. Throw back Thursday at it’s best… I realize that the last time I felt like this was past chemo…. WOW! It has really been a while! I have been busy lately, but for now, I have cancelled everything until this afternoon, […]

Getting up I am tired beyond believe!! My mood today follows the weather – rainy in the morning and sunshine in the evening. I have not been to the running Mamas for a while, but make an effort and join them 30 min late. This week is a plank challenge in which I cannot participate […]