7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing […]

5 January 2018

Long live Cortisone – despite a dreadful night with Mia being awake next to me from 2 til 4 and me slipping on the wooden floor in the morning, when dashing over to Leo and bruising my wrist and knee, I feel great and well recovered from chemo. I do the Kindergarten run, sort out […]

29 December 2017

„Reach for the stars, not for the daisies“ (Nicole Staudinger) … but what if I don’t have the energy. I have the first sleepless night since ages and my mind takes funny turns. I cry and feel lonely. I don’t know what is wrong – I go to the bathroom and admire my little regrowth […]

28 December 2017

Chemoooooo hoooohooo! Number 10 is done ….whooohooooo! If all goes smoothly, I am all done in one month’s time … yipehhh! Since the kids have no Kindergarten and Markus is off today, I ask them to bring me to chemo. I want to show the kids, where I go and I want them to meet […]

19 December 2017

I decide to enjoy the morning’s peace and quietness today! A newspaper with coffee in bed is my most desired thing right now – pure bliss! Even if everything is available online, I love reading ‚real‘ papers, like I did before I had kids! Eventually I go to town and after yet another unsuccessful attempt […]

16 December 2017

No more coughing, but I get my revenge for yesterday – I am exhausted! I still manage to decorate the tree with Leo and go to the Kulturkirche Christmas market meeting lots of friends and kids… I am freezing though and shivering when I arrive back home and have to cancel my evening plans  – […]