7 January 2018

I love weekends and I equally don’t lately…. it is the constant stretch between what I want and what I can do that causes emotional turmoil. Saturday I feel really well post chemo, get up early with Mia, make breakfast and sing with her – did I mention that my 1,5 year old is singing …

5 January 2018

Long live Cortisone – despite a dreadful night with Mia being awake next to me from 2 til 4 and me slipping on the wooden floor in the morning, when dashing over to Leo and bruising my wrist and knee, I feel great and well recovered from chemo. I do the Kindergarten run, sort out …

30 December 2017

Off we go to Luxembourg! 13 degrees and it is raining cats and dogs – I guess I am leaving the snow boots at home and I am happy that there is a gym and climbing wall for the kids for plenty of indoor fun! The wonderful thing is that the kids all entertain each …

29 December 2017

„Reach for the stars, not for the daisies“ (Nicole Staudinger) … but what if I don’t have the energy. I have the first sleepless night since ages and my mind takes funny turns. I cry and feel lonely. I don’t know what is wrong – I go to the bathroom and admire my little regrowth …

28 December 2017

Chemoooooo hoooohooo! Number 10 is done ….whooohooooo! If all goes smoothly, I am all done in one month’s time … yipehhh! Since the kids have no Kindergarten and Markus is off today, I ask them to bring me to chemo. I want to show the kids, where I go and I want them to meet …

27 December 2017

I know I keep going on about it, but I still have an issue with my lashes and eyebrows …. or rather without them. No hair is easy to handle – I could have shaved my head on purpose and actually like it, but without eyebrows and lashes, I look ill! Going home for Christmas, …

26 December 2017

We are finally back in Cologne and I am tired, but happy and the kids are adorable. There was so much magic and love during Christmas and I am grateful ❤️ – and I took it easy and simply enjoyed it! Last night, my brother Micky and I eventually hit the town and went to Tröte. I …

19 December 2017

I decide to enjoy the morning’s peace and quietness today! A newspaper with coffee in bed is my most desired thing right now – pure bliss! Even if everything is available online, I love reading ‚real‘ papers, like I did before I had kids! Eventually I go to town and after yet another unsuccessful attempt …

16 December 2017

No more coughing, but I get my revenge for yesterday – I am exhausted! I still manage to decorate the tree with Leo and go to the Kulturkirche Christmas market meeting lots of friends and kids… I am freezing though and shivering when I arrive back home and have to cancel my evening plans  – …