Monatsarchiv:August 2018

Meditation – this is something literally everyone recommended I should do after I got my diagnosis… but how?!?! I had some experience with guided meditations through my travels and yoga practices, but needed to find a way to bring regularity into this….. I quickly discovered Headspace (thanks Oli!) and when I could no longer run […]

#BraveBrightBeautiful – that’s what I want to be, but in the mornings it’s normally #OldTiredStiff…. not today though…. I am waken by some rays of sunshine on my face at 9:00am – peace, quietness and warmth fill the room and I can just turn around, linger in bed and have a first quiet coffee, while […]

My kids are going for a few days to my Mum’s before we pick them up for our holidays…. I want to spoil them beforehand, give Markus a lay in, make yellow and green pancakes, play silly games and let them watch their first 20 minutes of Sesame Street – ever – and it brings […]

Teeth – I never had good ones and I was always scared of losing them, had horrible dentist visits and the simple thought of visiting a dentist would give me shivers – not even the little rubber animals I was rewarded with could help! Yes, I definitely ate too much candy, the creaking of my […]

„I am telling you for the last time“ chemo nurse Fassbender gives me a lecture.., and I know that she means well! „You have to say good bye to your cancer – tell him that in November you are parting ways!“ It makes me think, yes, definitely we are going separate ways, yes, I need […]

It is amazingly warm at almost 30 degrees at 11pm, when Simone and I cycle back from the Philharmonia concert „The 27 Club“…. it feels like I am in a mediterannean country, as the warm air blows trough my hair and the Rhine river sparkles in the night… I am filled with happiness as I […]

Renewal of eyelashes happens serenely every few months…. generally it is a gradual process, but for me, my new lashes decide to renew themselves all at once! Now is there any need for that?!? I heard that after a while it goes back to a gradual renewal… fingers crossed that this won’t be too long! […]

🎵🎶🎵 Monday – Music therapy day….oh what joy! I am glad we sing not only English and German, but also African and Maori songs, as my mind does not attach to the words – I actually have no clue what it means or quickly forget it and my mind takes off on little adventurous journeys. […]

An alliance – that is what we are…. we are on this path together. No matter what cancer, no matter what background, I feel the special connection between the cancer patients – it’s the sense of understanding without words. Chemonurse Fassbender says you cannot go along with everyone and at one point, you need to […]

Total cancer fatigue disaster yesterday…. I am running on emergency power from 5pm onwards and it gets worse and worse…. normally, not that much of an issue, but we have Simone and her family over and I am presenting my worst self…. tired is ok, but I am moody, thin skinned, impatient and have no […]